Dear Mom

Where do I even begin? I guess I’ll go back to when you and dad brought me into this world on March 23, I apologize for being two months late. I guess that was a sign that I was going to be a huge pain in the ass. Thank you for teaching me how to talk, to teaching me how to drive a car, and to treat others, everything. I know I’ve got a friend in you.

Now here we are, I’m about to be going into my junior year in high school already and it’s unbelievable to me. We’ve both been through so much together over these past years. Sometimes I feel like a take you for granted. And I hate that more than anything. You’ve done so many things for me.

Almost every other night i facetime with my mom for about half an hour.

in high school I used to tell her every little detail about my life, and even though I live away from you, it makes me really happy that i still can do that. she’s always there to comfort me when I’m sad or laugh with me when I’m happy, and even though we’re not physically near we are still really close. I’m really lucky to be able to maintain a great relationship with her.

I really don’t think i could handle this whole “college” thing if i couldn’t talk to her whenever i want. I know I have to grow up eventually, but I will always be your baby, mommy. I love you so much.

GROWTH

I don’t think I’ll be doing anything last night. I think this is the first Earthday of mine that I’m actually “in” for the night since I was probably 17th. It’s peculiar, but I kinda like it. I have always been so unassuming and disinterested in this day; the day I was born.

BUT.. well, I thank God for giving me another year to celebrate my birthday! Seems like I’m getting old already. But hey! Age doesn’t matters.

Okay, somehow. They made my birthday so special. They are my mother, father, boyfriend, sisters, brothers and also all of my friends. They can made me cry and laugh at the same time. It was an wonderful birthday surprise. I swear that’s unexpected for me. Anyway, thankyou so MUCHMUCHMUCH!!!

                                                           I love this one so damn much

MARCH!!!

I promise to eat clean and I will make time to prepare and enjoy my meals. I promise to say “no” to others when I need to make time for myself. I will give 100% no matter what it looks like. I promise to get enough sleep. I will take the time to appreciate the little things like the warmth on the sun on my skin and the first sip of my morning tea. I promise to make March the best it can be.

How to Stop Worrying

1. Prepare for the worst but hope for the best. In reality, few of our worries actually become a reality. However, if you prepare in advance for things going wrong, you’ll have strategies available to cope and survive.

2.  Write a list of everything you think you need to do, and then tick them off as you work through the list. That will help you feel more organised, and much more in control.

3. Do something to distract yourself – so your anxious thoughts don’t grow bigger in your mind.

4. Share your feelings with someone who understands and cares. They’ll offer you support – and you’ll gain perspective, too.

5. Confront the problem head often. It’s often the uncertainty that worries us the most – so face up to your worries – and take the steps you can.

6. Choose to do something that help you to calm you – like listening to your ipod or chilling with a friend.

7. Choose to be thankful. There are so many things to be grateful for. Compose a list of those, and you’ll find your worries fade. - http://onlinecounsellingcollege.tumblr.com/post/41044986080/how-to-stop-worrying

any suggestion?

What to look forward to. 2013♥

In less than  it’s 120 minutes gonna be a new year for everyone. I never once felt the feeling of departing from a year and getting into a new one was awesome. It was always normal for me, and it prolly ain’t changin’ so soon. I had 2012 is such a great year for me (to be part of his life) Anyways, I do believe that my approach for 2013 is gonna be different and I’ll see it from here on now.

I think that would be a word that best describes my twenty-twelve. I figured this  might be of help to thoroughly leave this year. That I actually do have a purpose in life. But when she left, I realized how alone I was, which triggered my breakdown. Everytime some confidence and self-worth would grow inside me, they’d instantly fade too. And I’m pretty sure that it was a good transformation. I thank God for giving me those series of problems, because I know very damn well that I can handle myself. I no longer fear being left behind, cause I actually believe that it would be their loss and never mine. Yes, I learned to value myself because of everything that had happened. Which is more than I’d ever ask for. We could leave all of those by the time the clock strikes midnight or not, we have our own minds after all. This two thousand and thirteen? This will be different. Different, in the sense that I no longer am the Maghfira who have troubles sleeping at night for something I can’t change. This year, I’ll rekindle my almost-extinguished relationship with God. For he has made me stronger those times I needed strength the most. Happy New Year to all who reads this post! Pieces of Time New years come and new years go, Pieces of time all in a row. As we live our life, each second and minute, We know we’re privileged to have you in it. Our appreciation never ends For our greatest blessings: our family and friends. Happy New Year!

Top shots 2012

My Sweetest 2012

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'crazy' Times

      The term best friend is too mainstream, I prefer calling them brothers, sisters, diary, journal, adviser, and listener. Having a best friend makes me look to a new perspective in life. I can act silly whenever they’re around. They’re going to find out how you talk, how you dance, how you sing, how you  look in the morning, how you smell in ever second of the day. They’re going to find out how you eat a lot, how hyper you can be when they’re around, how ugly you are when you were young. They’re going to know every detail about you. And you know what? They’re still going to love you and accept you for who you are.
    Aaa he came for the right time!!! Knocked my bedroom when it's midnight. I  don't know who standing behind the door, but i'm sure i know who he is. Yeaaa he came. Shock, happy, getting annoyed, confused, etc. Today or yesterday it's not my birthday. But, why i got some cute surprise?  HAHA Thx God for single double triple blessing that you give.

 Thx for the quote;  “Sometimes, the wrong choices bring us to the right places” This was something he told me not long after we first met. Thx for today, tonight, the beautiful sunset and also the cute gift.